For many years I wished my dad got to ring the bell. You know, that bell at the hospital that patients get to ring when they’re finally cancer-free. I wished he could stand up tall, on his own, surrounded by smiles and laughter and pure joy. I wished he could ring that bell louder than… Continue reading Ringing the Bell
Why Can’t Anybody Hear Me?
Things have been a bit rocky. I had this dream the other night that I was desperately looking for help. I was desperately looking for someone to beg for help because I was breaking down and I wasn't going to make it on my own. Except in the dream I couldn't get my words out.… Continue reading Why Can’t Anybody Hear Me?
One Step Forward, Two Steps Back
My worst fear is a relapse and it's happening. I have been soundly on my medications for years with very minimal symptoms but lately I can feel something changing. I don't know what it is but I am mentally exhausted. It's not a thing that I am exhausted from or a situation, it's life. I'm… Continue reading One Step Forward, Two Steps Back
The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness. -Honore de Balzac Not everyone is blessed to have a good mother or even a mother at all. I got really lucky because not only do I have my mother, I have a great one. She… Continue reading Mama Rendón