Dig Deep

I’m not really sure what happened earlier. Maybe my last post triggered my anxiety because I had a full blown panic attack. This has only happened about four times ever. It isn’t normal for me which I think makes it worse.

I’ve gone back to feeling like a burden. Somewhere inside of me is the voice that tells me my mind is just lying to me, but I can’t seem to hear it. How stupid.

I am managing my day much better than I was earlier. Focusing on my work and staying busy helps, but anxiety is still festering in the back of my mind. I don’t know how I’ll feel when I get home.

For now I’m busy and that will suffice. As my boss always says, “dig deep”.

I’m digging.