I am not sure how to get what I want to say without being super frank. I started this blog because wanted to tell the story of my Bipolar journey to help others. In turn, it has helped me more than I can explain. The feedback I get is amazing, and full of love and positivity. I literally sat on my couch one day a couple of months ago and said, “I’m going to start a blog”. Fifteen minutes later my first blog post was up. I’m a little impulsive.
It wasn’t long after that a stranger came across my blog and we connected. Starting a blog about one of the most painful and difficult things I deal with in life brought me something incredible. This person has brought me joy in a way I didn’t think existed.
Am I still dealing with depression? Yes I am. I still find it hard to control my anger and I get exhausted from human interaction very easily. I go to bed early because my medication makes me so sleepy, and then I wake up in the middle of the night. Sometimes it’s hard to fall back asleep because my mind is racing.
I am looking at life a little differently, though. I’ve sort of been overwhelmed by how I am feeling. I see now that there are no coincidences in life. Just when I threw in the towel God threw it back. He said, “Sarah, I am not done. Don’t give up.” I’m considering changes in my life that I’ve been too lazy to think about in the past. It is encouraging.
God works in mysterious ways. Truly. You never know what is in store for you down the road. Today, I have hope.